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Lalala.

It’s sorta frustrating that I think too much that it comes to a point where I’m thinking about things that don’t even need to be thought about. Ahh well. Something to work on then, yeah?

Lord, I need Your help here… :-j Hee.

end~ saaavi

Glorifying God.

Just came from my growth  group. Here’s something we discussed:

We should never be content with how we are living for God. If there are still some things that we could do to glorify God better, do it. By all means, do it. If there are still somethings we could change in ourselves to glorify God better, by all means, change. If there are still things we could give up, say our pride or our desires, by ALL means, give it up.

BY ALL MEANS. If we’re really living a God-centered life, we wouldn’t hold back from glorifying Him as best as we can.

By ALL means, panindigan natin.

end~ saaavi

Something to remember.

This morning, I was kind of lost again. I was trying to remember why I had to *you know what here*.

I was chatting with Alyssa just a little while ago, and she helped remind me of a reason why. I shan’t put it in here. :))

But another reason popped into my mind just now: I want to live a life for God. I want God to use me to bless others, to minister to others. I want to be able to help other girls. I wanna be a discipler! 

And if that’s what I really want, then I don’t want anything pulling me down. If that’s what I really want, I only want what God wants for me. So what if I don’t get what I want? I should be glad if I don’t get it because that means it’s not what God wants for me. Why be sad about not getting something God doesn’t want for me?

What made this hard for me before was being so set on what I wanted, which was something that God didn’t want for me. So now, I only want what God wants for me. :)

Now, I just want to obey Him. Why do something without His telling you to do so? Mind you, His ways of telling you aren’t always the same, nor are they always clear. Sometimes you have to take a leap of faith. But one thing’s for sure, He will affirm you somehow. Basta, ayoko nang unahan si God. 

This is precisely what I needed to remember. Wee.

end~ saaavi

[30 August 2011] Day 89! + HAVING FAITH + No sleep tonight. REALLY!

GAME FACE: ON. 

I’m planning on staying up tonight. No naps! I really have to catch up on my schoolwork. Consequences for falling asleep on my work again last night. Yeah. After I posted the blog about actually finishing the stuff on my to-do list. How frustrating! HAHA. GAME. TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT!

Today, I was just amazed at what faith can do. 

Our block had a rummage sale today as part of our fund raising for the exhibit we want to hold later this semester. Anyway, the whole time, even as we were planning it last week, I really thought we wouldn’t make much from it. I don’t know why. Last night, I even thought that people weren’t going to go to our rummage sale cuz the people we invited (via facebook and etc.) seemed uninterested. 

Tapos sabi pa ni Raisa, my blockmate who volunteered her house/area for the rummage sale, na parang di dapat siguro umasa na bibili mga kapit bahay niya. 

So this morning, I really wasn’t expecting much. I just prayed to God, asking Him to just do something about it. Anything. And so we went on preparing for it. 

In just the first two hours of our rummage sale, we were able to make P4,7k. WHAT IS THAT?! TELL ME WHAT IS THAT. By the end of the day, we had made P8,7k. SIGE. ANO. O_O

GRABE LANG HA! Lord, grabe… Your grace.

Then later today, I did my devos. Lumabas ‘to. 

“He replied, ‘Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.’”

Matthew 17:20

HAHA. Napahiya talaga ako. HAHAHA. God has a way of reminding you just how powerful He is. There. I thank God for reminding me just how much I can put my faith and trust in Him.

end~ saaavi

[29 August 2011] Day 88! + Fearing God.

Short lang! 

Today, I thank God for my growth group in GCF South Metro. [Hi, Petite!] Today, we celebrated our third anniversary at Tita Arlene’s house with movies and lots and lots of food! HEH. I only regret bringing my schoolwork, so I wasn’t really able to spend as much time as I could have with the GG. Next time! 

But I’ve come to really love the company of my growth group. :) Sobrang blessing talaga silang lahat. I super super super thank God for them. :) 

Anyway, today, napansin ko ulit na napaka-ingay at OA ko. HAHA. Nakakairita. Nakaka-turn-off. At hindi nakaka-glorify kay God. HAHA. Haii. Anyway, it’s just another reminder for me to have more self-control and to think before I speak or act. HEH. :) Nakoooo. Woooo. It’s also a reminder to stay focused on what God wants me to do and on God Himself. 

FOCUS, SJAY. FOCUS. Panindigan mo. I guess a way to stay focused is to recognize God’s sovereignty in my life and to really fear Him. Weeee.

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.”

Proverbs 31:30

Anyway, time to get back to my schoolwork. :)

end~ saaavi

Oh, Twitter.

My alone time in the mall earlier gave me some time to think about how I’ve been these past couple of days. I’ve pretty much regressed again, though, it isn’t as bad as before. But it’s still pretty asdfghjkl;, nonetheless.

These past few days, I’ve been feeling discouraged. Even people and situations I didn’t at all expect discouragement from got me all down in the dumps. This has, once again, gotten me unfocused on what I’m supposed to be doing right now.

Focus, SJay. Focus on what again? 

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”

Hebrews 12:1-3

This. 

Wait. Before I get started on what I initially planned for this post to be about, you should know these things first:

1. Couple of days ago, I noticed that I had made my close friends my security. I’d find myself running to them whenever I’d get all frustrated or emotional instead of running to God first. It’s not wrong to go to friends and all for comfort, but when you let them take God’s place, that’s when there’s something wrong. Cuz of that, I’ve been trying to minimize and control that. However,…
2. today, I noticed that I did start minimizing and controlling my expressing to my friends, but I resorted to Twitter instead. Today was one of my talkative days on Twitter. So, FAIL diba? Haha. I turned away from friends, but turned to Twitter, when I should have turned to God. 

So, this just goes to show that I am once again not focused on what I should be focused on, which is living a life that’s glorifying to God with my eyes fixed on Jesus. Cuz if I’m really set on it, I’d know that no one and nothing else can enable me to do so aside from God.

Now, I’ve been tweeting and blogging a lot about not holding back from God, right? I think this whole Twitter thing is another thing that I have to stop holding back from God. 

When I started using Twitter, I saw it as a place where I could just express myself, where I could let out my thoughts, sabaw-ity, feelings, and etc. Of course, I still had glorifying God in mind, but it wasn’t exactly my goal. My goal was just to tweet whatever I felt like tweeting. Maybe, at the back of my mind, I was thinking that it was okay to have one thing in my life just for me, and not all about God. MALI. Check out 1 Corinthians 10:31-33. 

I realized I have to change my selfish perception of Twitter. It’s not a place for me to just express I want to. It’s a place where God can use me to actually encourage other people, to bless other people, to show love to other people. 

Now, if I want to do that, I have to stop tweeting without thinking about what I’m about to tweet. I also have to go beyond thinking and actually consult God and not just rely on my own wisdom (Proverbs 3:5-6) on whether or not it’s alright to tweet about I’m about to tweet. Ilang beses ko nang na-tweet yung hindi dapat inuunahan si God. Gotta start practicing that in every aspect of my life, even the littlest aspects. 

Now, as for the running-to-Twitter-instead-of-to-God issue. Since I’ve resolved that Twitter isn’t just a place to express whatever feelings I may have, I have to make sure that I now run to God first whenever I have something that I’m just dying to get the negative vibes out of my system.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.”

Matthew 11:28

To do this, I am not allowing myself to post anything outrightly negative that expresses my frustration, anger, sadness, bitterness, etc. AND THAT IS GOING TO TAKE A LOT OF PATIENCE AND SELF-CONTROL, GALLY. It’ll be hard for me since I’m the type that just expresses. But if I want change to happen, I have to change how I do things, no matter how hard they may be.

“I can do everything through him who gives me strength.”

Philippians 4:13

I can only post about whatever negative feelings those may be after I have prayed to God about it, after I’ve calmed down. I can’t just go on saying whatever I want especially when I’m on an emotional rampage. Haha. That wouldn’t be glorifying to God at all. Na saan yung gentle and quiet spirit diyan?! Haha. And we go back to Twitter as a place where God can use me to bless others and yadayadayada.

And after I’ve talked things out with God about whatever bad vibes I had, I think it would be plain stupid of me to tweet anything outrightly negative pa after that. So, there. Woot.

end~ saaavi

Lesson learned (hopefully).

Once again, I did not get to study enough for an exam. I haven’t gone through MORE THAN 25% of the handouts or the notes. I haven’t gone through MORE THAN 25% the pictures. How I will pass this, I do now know.

But I do know that whether or not I pass this, I will glorify God. I will choose to praise Him either way. Cuz if I do pass, then I’d just be so amazed by His grace! And if I don’t, that doesn’t make God any less faithful. And besides, I deserve a failing mark knowing the “effort” I put into reviewing for the exam. And, I’m still His child aren’t I? Isn’t being in His presence enough reason for me to praise Him?

Of course, I should have given more effort into studying for the exam. It’s not an excuse not to study! Lalala. Lord, I need to manage my time way better for Your glory! Lalala!

end~ saaavi